So the last few months have been some of the longest months of my life. Only last summer beats this summer. Last summer was hell, this summer is just close. So as I have been pining for a better life and an explanation for why everything can go wrong at the same time, the song “You’re Gonna Miss This” has been coming to mind. We have been swamped with Medical School Applications (You know doctors deserve to be paid a lot just for having to fill out those absolute awful applications. You think I am joking but nothing compares to Med school apps for pure torture. If your marriage can survive the application process then you have earned Celestial Glory). And worried about how we might answer our little boy’s prayers to have another baby when the Lord’s answer just seems to be a big NO. Or how to keep up with church, a busy 3 year old, and all the other adult responsibilities that just have to be taken care of. So today I started to think about what was I going to miss? Was I enjoying the moments I have now or just pining for a future that I have little control over? I don’t want to look back and say that I missed out on living for today, so I have been making a list of all the things I would miss about my life just how it is right now.
1.
My husband’s hair. The last year has been hard on his head of hair and I am afraid in a few years there will be nothing left. I am going to miss the full head of hair, even though I will love him no matter what.
2.
A 3 year old. Quite frankly I love 3. It is way better than 2 and Caleb is too darn cute. 3 is fun because they can talk, reason, dress themselves, but still think mom can fix anything. I get cuddles and kisses and independence. It is a great combo and by there are far less tantrums.
3.
Only having to clean 1 toilet. The advantage to small apartment living is that there is only 1 toilet in the house for my son to completely spray with pee. I do not look forward to having to clean multiple toilets.
4.
Running. I am really going to miss the day that my body cannot run anymore. I truly love the product of running. It can make my day that much better to just go for a run.
5.
The Student Life. I don’t like the living on loans that don’t pay for much, but I sure like the social life. There is something about hanging out with other couples that are in the schooling process. You have so much in common and understand so much about each other just because you are far from home and going through school. I will miss that easy connection.
6.
Philadelphia. There is no place in the US that can disgust you and fascinate you in the ways Philly can. It truly is a unique city with so much to teach me.
7.
West Africans. They may smell like fish, have cockroaches running across their tables, and be so poor and uneducated I don’t know how to help them, but they are so loving and giving. I have learned so much from them and cannot believe that I can truly call some of them Friend.
8.
My 29 year old body. Already I can tell that a 30 year old body is just not going to be the same as the 29 year old one. It is going to be harder to lose weight, stay fit, and keep the skin looking quite as youthful. The day for actually having to count calories is near or here already.
9.
“Mommy, I woke up with the sun.” There is no better way to wake up in the morning, than to a little boy with a big smile that says “Mommy, I woke up with the sun.” Then he tells me his big plans for the day.
10.
8:30 PM Adult Time. I love being able to put Caleb to bed and having just adult time until we go to bed. There are no teenagers to wait up for or late big kid bed times. Just a quiet peaceful night like this one, with a cute little boy all tucked in bed and safe.
11.
The Age of Twilight, Harry Potter, High School Musical,& Hannah Montana. I almost forgot this one. Yep I am not a very orginal groupy. I love the Twilight Series and Harry Potter and find Disney movies like High School Musical, Hannah Montana, and Camp Rock way too fun and cute. What can I say, I'm a sucker.
So maybe life isn’t all bad and there are lots of things I would miss about life just how it is.